NYE + React

My age always comes ahead of the ball drops. I am 35 going into 2025. While reading this morning I found myself longing for New Year’s Day. Waking up fresh, the thin cold air resetting. The chill of the floor and the breeze emitting from the heating vents tickling my ankles. Freshness. Almost half the year is gone now. Half of that half has been living in the turmoil of being careerless. I need a mid-year reset, a new year’s for the back half. I long for a push, for fate to shove me in a direction that would make sense. I wait to react to circumstance, until then what am I going to do? What am I going to do?